I don’t make promises I can’t fulfill, so when I say I’ll be there somehow, someway I will

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Eid Mubarak

Eid Mubarak






KEl 3am ooo entooo eb5aaair ooo 3asakoom men 3awaaaada and aboooudi says keep the change :P .
:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 10/11/2007 04:25:00 PM | link | 2 comments |

Friday, September 28, 2007

I am a MOMMMY!!!


Om 3abdaLLah Starting from August.28.2007

3:Hours old
3aboudi just 7:hours old he weight/ 2700Kg




















Fist of all Ramadan Mubarik may Almighty Allah bliss you and your loved onces on this holy month of RAMADAN.

woooooow its beeen a busy year a lot has happened and the best thing out of it was my baby Boy 3abdallah. I had him 2weeks early on Aug.28 he was due Sept.13 As soon As I reached Canada on Aug.12 I wasnt feeling all that. But I kept on ingnoring it. Maybe it was Braxton Hicks contractions where the body is rehersing for labor. 1week later it kept getting worse it was around late midnight our hotel was by the hospital around a 20mint walk on foot. My baba was like "nothing wrong insallah maybe u should stop eating Shawarmma" becasue we new the owner so we hang out there most the time at night *GrRRRRrRrr* I was like " Baba u dont understand I feel something inside my tummy hehehe dad goes " ee baba fe baby". So we went walking to the hospital!! there was our own emergency room for pregneat women they took me in and did testing right away.
so after 3 blood works and few hours of monitoring my baby I had high blood presure they sent me home and said to come back to the clinic in the hospital.
the next day I felt worse then the first day so I went in again. they did more testing on me (OUCH MY HAND I hate needles!!) 3 doctors came in the room and said ur virus has 3 times doubled from yesterday and we need to indouce you!!. I was like oooh my GOsh I didnt even go shopping I asked the the doc if i can atleast leave and come back later that day and he said NOPE!!!. SO here I am alone in the delivery room getting ready I had 2have an altrasound and all that good stuff be4 delivery. I was only 37 weeks preg at the time.
u know it was my birthday that day I was soo happy iwanted a baby on my bday.
bs when you get indouced its not a pretty thing you have to wait 12 hours after they insert something then the cervix will open and then they break the water. after all that waiting they changed there mind because they didnt want to have me have a csetion instead I was under supervison for 3days then i was sent home.
heeeeeeeeeeef sorry for the long POST soo I have dont shopping aham shay ok so on August.27 I had a doctor appoiment for a check up I missed it so I went in anyway and preteanded I miss read the time. after they have done the LONG check up. I was waiting with my baba in the waiting room dad went to see if the docotor is coming soon 3ashan i was hungary the doctor told dad i was fine and baby is fine hamdallah just one more result so dad head out to call mom because I txt msged here and made her go crazy. so I decided to sneak out because I was told I am fine as I am heading out 2 nurses with a hospital gown came towards me and said "heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey you are having a baby today"!!! I was like "I AM".
and so I was marching toward the delivery room with my head up high but I was balling *SNiiiiiiF* abeeeee mommmmy. so they did more testing i think i ran out of blood they kept taking i was going to charge then hehehe. So after all the yuky time getting indouced i dont want to talk about it. they indouced me at 5pm and 5am i was Screaming my baba jumped i was in labor heeeyaaa i couldnt take the pain i was Screaming and throwing things away i was MAd crazy it hurts more then ever. the nurse came in and broke my water. So they put me in the shower and i was putting runny warm water on my tummy to ease the pain. after i was screaming for apadirl bs it gets better the person to do it was having a shift change so i had to wait!!!.
I was in so much pain i was saying PLZ ALLAH i will be good loolz i will do this and that. after the guy came and i was screaming at him for being late and so i got parlized and i only felt the constractions but not the pain as much. my brother came in with me he was video typing me the intire time bs he was typing my head and the nurses. so after 7hour of non stop pushing the baby heart beat went down he was tired of pushing the tried vacumming him out and he was still in and then the doctor was like we are not going to have u push all day. SO i went in for a C.Section they added more pain free med and i was awake the intire time joking with the nurses and my bro. heeeeeeeeef 7amdalah after all my baby was out and healthy he weight 2700kg soooo smallllll and tiny at 38 weeks.
3days in the hospital after my c.section i was in soo much pain couldnt move bs ihad no one but my dad and brother in the hotel room but i did it alll alone thinking about i dont know how i have done it alone ( but the gudience of Allah).
I will talk more about the plane trip nxt post insallah



:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 9/28/2007 02:17:00 PM | link | 2 comments |

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Long time No See



Long time NO See how u doing??


I know I have been away for a really long time * bad girl* but I really didnt have the mood to blog!!!. Since I got married everything in my life has changed just what I was scarid of and even worse!!!!...



So I got married to a selfish loser who is greeety and just a heart of rock!! I didnt even feeel like a bride no honey moon nothing special . I didnt feeel happy inside I just put on a fake smile to hide my pain. I tried to basicly adjust to his life style and that nobody is prefect !!!!! but MY GOD he was just a MAMA'S Boy he does what his mommy and sister tells him . .
anyways he got laid of his job by choise and he was just being lazy and stuff. He wanted me to work/drive/and be a wife I cant do it all by myself he was wired!! wala.

my grandmother passed away DEC.12 Allah yar7amha and he was sooo cold!! I have never seen or heard about a person with his actions. On DEc.30 the first day of Eid he never got me a gift or said anything nice. He was like why u celebrate eid ur grandmother died therefore I get u nothing :( man i was stabbed in the heart that day. anywho my parents said to wait and see what happens yet he went to see his sisters for eid and stuff but I didnt leave with him. Iwanted to stay with my family and he would pick me up later that night. GUESS what he never CAME to pick me up soo I never called!!!. the next day he calls and I didnt pick up because I was so upset with him so he shows up after 3 days and my baba kicked him out. Since that day my baba and I wanted Divorce but it gets better and better now I got sick I had a feeling of something but I wasnt sure. I went to boshari clinic and took a blood test and I found OUt i was pregneat on jan3.2007 after being married for 25 days hehe its 2months but I spent only 25day with him i slept over at my parents place alot. madry I hate telling my sad story over and over soo i feel cold telling u people I am sorry.

So now I am 8 and a half months pregneant due: September. 13. 2007 with a baby boy.

I just feel hurt for the baby I never thought I'd be a singal mother. But I am not the first nor I am the last!!!

I WILLLLL SURVIVE!!!
:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 8/04/2007 04:19:00 PM | link | 8 comments |

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

EID MUBARAK

Hey

A very special EID MUBARAK to ALLLLL from the heart *MUUUUUAAAH hehehehe ^_^ and tagaaaabal ALLAH 6a3atkum!

7amdallah I feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel mUch better and I am giving him a seconed chance!!!

SOrry for some stranger reason I cant reply !!!??? it gives me a msg sorry ur account something something .. ... any Idea why???


OK NOOOOOWWWW I neeeeeed everyone to think with me here!!

I want to do a Zafaaah but a unique one like before I wake in I want to have an English love song instead of classsic Insturment song!!! 7elo then when I acually walk in I want an arabic song that I'LLL have to talk with the D'J sooo for now I want a reallllllY nice love song ex. Celin dion any Ideal GIMMME names refresh my mind .

any ladies add me on MSN I want to invite
OK princess!! ; )


ThanXXX
:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 10/24/2006 07:53:00 AM | link | 13 comments |

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

ONe sad STory


A prefect life to me is what?? . . . . being health and happpy and you kNow haveing spare change here and there (hehehehehe) . . . . I never expected more or less never looked up nor did I look down I basicly went with the flow then again "LIFE IS WHAT YOU MAKE" but I did have goals and I wanted to take every S T E P to get to them even if it was baby
S T E P S . . . . . . alot of things have changed as life goes on and changes take place I find my self stuck in my old memorie lane I wish I can turn back the time but I cant I wish I can reconsider somethings But I cant and my wish list goes on and on and on and on . . .


One of the things that have had a major inpact on me NOW is my MARRIAGE

my wedding is sooon Nov.12 I really want to cancel but I cant I dont love him looooolz I tell my best friend if he followed me and gave me his number I would never have taken it and look now what he is my HUSBAND. I mean I dont know the guy to judge him and what I know doesnt say much.


  1. He is greeeeeeeeeedy because I bought him a diamond ring when he went and baught me a 20KD Ring.
  2. He baught me oil paints for my BIRTHDAY O_0 *SNIIIIIIIIIF*
  3. He doesnt even calllllllllll me he says he is "SHY"
  4. We both come from two diffrent worlds!!
  5. He doesnt speak ENGLISH OMG thats such a No NO
  6. He is to white for me loolz i prefer darker tan ( I guess he shall start tanning )

Please dont ask why I agreeeeed along with this wedding I FEEEEEEEL SOOO SICK I lost soo much weight I look tired I am always day dreaming I like to be alone most of the time. 5 months ago the same day the men came to do the hole ordeal I told my DADDDY I dont want him bLah blah blah and my father said I love u and I want the best for u but if u only told me earlier before the men come. basiclly men cant take back their wordssss its 3aaaaaaaaBBB what and I have to SUFFFER CUZ they dont want to loooK GAY FUCK That SHIT ( sorry for the lang ) honestly I HATE SOME ARABS MENTALITY. belive me when I went to trie on alll those wedding dress I see the other girls laughing the SMILE IS From here '____________________' and there. and me I fake this cute lil smile heeeeeeeeef

I honesly feeeeeeeel hopless a birdy with out wings . . .

:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 10/17/2006 12:52:00 AM | link | 6 comments |

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Sally back to life??


SALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLY



ONe cloudy yet bright morning Day Iwalked in class and I saw one of my students she greeted me . . . . .

" GOOOD MORNING" MIss m&*% :P and I was like . . . .

" man she looks like somebody " to my self. Truly this girl really looks like Sally one of my fav childhood heros!!! ^_^

Special Thanks __ To ILiveinQ8 for providing me with the sally pics!!

What do YOU THINK???

:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 10/08/2006 01:29:00 AM | link | 7 comments |

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

UMM Stillll here




So I have decided to have a reward system for my students since they are sooo BAD!!! behavior wise!!! they are like those wiled animals that hate to sit down . .

but this weeks was pretty goood they didnt cry as much they didnt hit as much and etc.. I rewarded them 30 mints of play time in the playground. I decided I can introduce one of my fav childhood games DUCK DUCK GOOES. Ill refresh your minds we got in a big circle and sat down on our bottoms ok and then I demonstarated that I am the lovely DUCK *blush* and walk towards each child in the circuler motion and tap them gently on there heads and
say : DUCK DUCK DUCK DUCK DUCK untill I pick my GOOES then that child has to run after me while I run for my life to sit in his/her spot be4 he/she catch me!!!. SO it was going pretty good untill it was this girls turn "ROSE" ok hehehe she was like " dooooS dooooS DoooooS DooooooS and when she picked her victim she was like heeeeeeeya DaaaaaaagooooooooS!! O_0 where the hec did she get --- DoooooS and dagoooS!! I was laughing soooooooooooooo hard that I got all childerns attention and they started laughtiung Cuz I was pretty much out of it!!

check this out I am really tring to changed my students manners because it sucks ( I dont care they arent getting it from me ) you see They come up to me MISS bathroom I go what my name is MIss bathroom NOW!!!.. hehehehe sooo MISS feny BOOLAH So now they have to say " May I go to the bathroom please ALso May I get a drink of water please" If they cant remember to say all that they have to repeat after me inorder to leave for there duty however If they do remember they get a big sticker. I have this girl she super cute yet evil she asks to use the bathroom 3-7 times in a day.

she really acts it holds her self and shakes herself I feel like througing herout of class.
( because she really gota go ) a day soo I decided to fallow her she walks super slow looks around and helps her-self to a short game on the playgrounds!! Boy I had a long talk with her and her father. I told her the story about the girl who cryied wolf!!

so every wednesday before home time I give them a little treat ... But only those who were good since Saturday get one or atleast trie to be goood!!! So I got them playdos!!! and I make a big deal out of it I clap and huge and kiss and praise!! But YOU should seeeeeee ALLL the bad kids crying there eyes@@ out I go GOOOD for u ( I am sooo mean wala ) next time dont give MISSS a hard time.

So I have been coming home from work at around 3 but I finish at 1:3o though I have soo much work to finish. I signed for the geergayan celebration YUP YUP I like to work myself :/ so I get home strip my chloths offf from the dooor till I get to my rooom put on my baggy PJ shirt. JUMP my BED!!!!!! and zzzzzzzzzzzsleeeeeep till fatoooooooooor time and then I wake up for prayer and eat but this year I dont eat as much As I did last year!!! after fatooor I havent been watching t.v shows I have beeen going shopping I have sooo MUch dresss barovait its not even fun anymore I am sick of it!!! HMMMM what else . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . I guess thats it for now

Lick yea later
ciao
I misss everyone :*



:: posted by Wilted_Roze, 9/27/2006 01:58:00 AM | link | 5 comments |